So tired.

I am so damn tired. I made the mistake over spring break of staying up late one night talking to my friend Ben (friend in real life), until 5:00 AM. I had decided that night that I’d just not go to sleep because I wanted to get my sleeping schedule back to normal, but I just ended up going to sleep, and then stayed up again the next night–then started the entire “try to stay up” process and failed that attempt too until finally it was Sunday night, school was starting back and I had a screwed up sleeping schedule. I was a complete zombie at school.

After I came home though, I played Zelda. I’m at the Ice Peak province, and I’m very confused at where to go next, but I’ll probably just explore all around Hyrule for clues. Baha. I love Zelda. <3<3<3.

Anyway, prom is coming up in a month and I don’t have a dress yet. Scary. I need to go buy one. It’s funny, cause I’m going with Ben. We’re just friends of course, but the night before Andrew left for Wisconsin, he made a big deal about me hanging around Ben so much, and he got kinda jealous. He wanted me to stay home instead of going to hang out at Ben’s house with all my friends, but of course, I would have for him if he was going to continue hanging out, but he had to eat with his sister because it was his last chance to see her before he went off for two months. Since he wasn’t able to hang out some more, I went to Ben’s house. It’s not like it was just Ben and me though, it was me, Heather, Casey and a bunch of Ben’s guy friends.

A bunch of people are asking when Coffee Shop Journal, Chapter Four will be out, and all I can say is sometime by the end of April to sometime in May. As of right now, I’ve been way to tired to function and think I owe my friends and family a couple of weeks before going off into my world of fiction again. I try to do that after every release. There will be a week or two of me absorbed in my story world, writing and taking pictures, then I release and try to spend a couple of weeks spending time with friends and family.

I’ve kind of decided that I want to write more for each chapter as I did with Chapter Three. Chapter One and Chapter Two, I believe, could have been one chapter on its own if I’d have published it that way, and I think I like that better–longer chapters. Gives people more to hold onto. I don’t know if I’ll succeed at doing that though.

I started a new book. I decided if I didn’t read a book after Twilight that was totally different, I’d never be able to accept different books other than Twilight, haha. I’m reading a really good book called, Summers at Castle Auburn. It’s pretty much a fairytale love story. You know, princes, princesses, castles, magic, witches. Only, it’s not childish as it sounds, just fascinating.

 Well, I can’t think of anything else to write about, so I’m going to have to end this here. Love to all! <3

Woohoo, another post!

So, as most of you know, Chapter Three of Coffee Shop Journal was released on Sunday. Woot Woot! I was so excited to get it out there because I worked so hard on it. Chapter Four is going to be a while though because I have a lot of writing to do. Usually I have the writing of the next chapter at least halfway done before I even get done taking the pictures for the other chapter. Oh well.

 So anyway, Andrew finally went to Wisconsin, and there’s a thread all about that and my trials with him and everything before he went posted on the Hangout. That event certainly provided plenty of inspiration time, so the following two weeks I did nothing but work on chapter three.

 Now I’m lazy and playing a lot of Zelda, Twilight Princess. It’s such a fun game! Well anyway, I’m more ADD today than usual, so I better stop here!

I’m okay for now!

You guys have really been making my life a lot happier with your feedback on Coffee Shop Journal. I feel like I’m finally writing something that you guys like, and it’s making me very happy despite all the crazy crap that’s going on in my real life. Seriously, I love getting feedback from you, it just really puts a smile on my face and makes me feel better about myself.

Chapter Three is probably going to be a lot longer than what y’all are used to. I’ve written a lot, and have a lot more planned. It’s just that this chapter really has a wide range of events that occur in it. It may be out within a month, but I really can’t promise that, now that I’ve got a better idea of how much is going to be included in it. I want to let y’all in more on some of the newer characters. It’s my favorite chapter so far.

Anyway, I’m doing better than normal today–partially because I went on a bike ride with my dad, and partially because I started reading The Hobbit. After reading Twilight and thinking no book can compare to its greatness, I’m glad to have a change of pace. Right now love stories are the very last thing I need haha, besides my own that I’m writing. Though I do plan on re-reading Twilight soon.

But anyway, after looking at everyone’s amazing websites, I know that I’m definitely going to be working to change the layout of my own. Mine was made over a period of two days, but I’m going to work on a better one. Getting all inspired and creative here.

The weekend

Hey Y’all!! Wonderful news for some of you! I finished Chapter Two, and I’ll upload it on Tuesday. I can’t upload it yet because the computer I wrote it on doesn’t have internet, and this computer doesn’t have Sims 2, but I am going to back up the files onto a disk and take them to Dad’s house and upload Tuesday. It’s a process that I have to go through every time I want to upload my stories. I’m excited. It’s kind of mellow, but enjoyable. Chapter Three is the starting of some of the main conflicts of the story, though. So don’t get entirely comfortable with the mellowness of the first two chapters. Haha, I’ve written like 90% of Chapter Three, and I love it, but it’s really going to be a change of pace. For a fair warning.

Anyway, about the weekend. It’s been a lot better than I expected! I had fun with one of my good friends. At first I was angry because she wanted to come over here so she could sneak out and see her boyfriend, but when she came back it was cool because I had someone to talk to for a long time, and it’s a lot better having someone to talk to than to sit around being bored.

Still going downhill.

Yeah. This weekend’s gonna suck. Really suck.

The one person I wish I was sharing the weekend with is going to hang out with another girl. And though he told me he wanted to still be friends, he won’t reply to my message I sent…doesn’t want anything to do with me at all. It’s not even like it was a message that was hard to reply to, just casual conversation, nothing melodramatic or whiny or anything of the sort. While he’s having a good time this weekend, I’ll probably just sit here thinking about what I would’ve been doing.

I’m not doing anything tonight, nor am I going anywhere. I wanted to go to watch Zacc sing, especially since he’s singing Me and the Moon, but then I found out from Ellie that her ride is full, so I’ve got no way to get there. I’ll probably just do nothing tonight but sit in sorrow, and work like a maniac to try to take my mind off things.

And the next day as well.

Then, if I find myself able to go to bed at a decent time, I’ll go to church on Sunday, and that’ll be the best part of my weekend.

But for every sad thing, there’s a bright side. At least I get to work on things?

*sigh*

The other sucky thing, but good thing at the same time, is that I only have 5 more slides left of Coffee Shop Journal: Chapter Two, but even that leaves me with problems.

1.) The chapter will be finished and I won’t have anything to work on unless I work on Chapter Three.

2.) Even when I finish it, I can’t upload it until Tuesday.

I’ll probably just start on typing up my manuscripts of chapter three and all that jazz–make some progress on it and stuff. I don’t know.

Today

Well, tennis practice was good today, only I’m a little frustrated. I’m a lot better at tennis than my sister, and she couldn’t score even one point today playing my in singles, and it just really sucks because Coach Sheffield is moving her up in rank. Wow. Can you say idiot? Oh well, it was still fun and stuff. The boys were out there earlier than Heather and I got there, but we were the first girls to show up, and when we got there there was a huge dog walking around on the court, and they told me its name was Heidi, to see what my reaction would be, and they were all like, “come here, Heidi!! Come here! Bad Heidi, bad Heidi!” to the dog, and I was all confused, but it was a good joke I have to admit haha. When Amy got there, they did the same to her. It was just a really funny practice.

But anyway, so yeah, Andrew’s hanging out with some girl on Saturday, and even though she’s just a friend, I keep worrying about it. And for some reason a bunch of guys that didn’t talk to me much before, suddenly are. They’re all my friends, rest assured, and nothing more, but it’s nice to think maybe Andrew will think otherwise and be jealous. Muahaha! >:D No seriously, childish as it is, I hope he thinks that. And I hope he’s jealous.

It seems like my life is completely bland without him until I start doing my story stuff… then I’m all happy again, but that’s like the only time I am.

By the way. My progress over the past few days on Coffee Shop Journal has been amaaazing. Chapter Two will be out soon because I’ve had so much time to work on this, which also means I could start on Chapter Three quickly too. I don’t want to fall behind on this story–I’d really like to be consistent as I release each chapter.

Anyway, I may edit this post later with some more junk, but as for now, I’m done.

So, I decided to make this  thing because I like to blog a lot, but nobody reads or cares about xanga anymore, so I made one on here to be read by you guys instead of my Alabama friends and whatnot.

 ANYWAY… onto other things. Some life crap.

Yea, soo where do I begin? How about with the reason I love blogging? I can rant about my life all I want and if anyone doesn’t like ranting, they can always leave. And I probably will have a lot of ranting post, whether they’re overexcited, over-angry or over-sad, they’ll be there.

And I don’t give a crap about grammar or structure or writing in word, then copying and pasting either. Blogs aren’t formal to me, so don’t point out mistakes or try to critique it because if you do, you’ll probably get a smartass reply back….

So, I have a lot…. and I do mean a lot of spare time lately. Not only did Andrew and I break up, but all of my friends are too busy with their significant others all the time to give a shit about hanging out either, so I’m stuck at home, but no, that doesn’t always bother me.

I have plenty of time to write all I want, and take sim pictures, build my website up, and talk with people on the hangout, and that is fun to me, but I need to have somewhat of a life.

It seems like even my school life couldn’t get any worse. I miss somewhat frequently because of my mood swings. Bi polarness=too happy, too sad or too angry. and I hate it. I know it’s no excuse for missing school, but sometimes, as I’ll quote from Twilight, “it’s healthy to miss class every now and then.” I don’t know if I got that quote as right as I wanted it to be, but whatever. Didn’t feel like pulling out the book and searching for the page, I’ve got things on my mind that I want to do as soon as I get off here. Take a shower, then work on my story some. Then after that, maybe even my website.

Yesterday I had a terrible jealous rage attack (lmao whatever that is) when I went on facebook and just went to Andrew’s profile to maybe post on his wall and see how he was doing, but some girl was posting on his wall about ”we should do something this weekend! what are you doing?” and then 3 wall posts later they’re going to get ice cream this weekend? How gay? I love ice cream and everything, but when I’m talking to a friend I haven’t seen in a while, I’m not gonna be all like, “Let’s go get ice cream!” I don’t know why but that annoyed me. And also, I can’t help thinking it might turn out to be a date and they might like each other and it infuriates me. We broke up A WEEK AGO!!!! He shouldn’t be able to move on that fast! It wasn’t like our relationship was one of those stupid little flings it was actually quite serious minus all the sexual stuff, cause there wasn’t any of that… Saving that for marriage or at least until I’m, in my opinion, old enough.

But then before that, I realized that I was hanging out with one of my good guy friends earlier that day and that I might be jealous for no reason…woww. I’m dumb.

Alright so I’m done. Hope you had fun with me being all non-grammaticalllll and stuff because on here it’s always gonna be like that. haha.